Poem ‘Milchgefühl’ in Dissonance Magazine

My poem ‘Milchgefühl’ was published in the wonderful Dissonance Magazine in April 2021. Unfortunately, Dissonance Magazine, as many independent magazines, had to close their website. You can read the entire poem down below.

Milchgefühl

peeking inside:

tables are waiting to be filled with coque au vin,

frommage and plaisir,

candle lights coruscating through the tarnished window.

outside,

i’m still in the periphery.

finite resolution, HQ,

not yet pixelated.

resilience takes a graphite pencil,

sketches us at our usual table;

it takes a second crayon to draw it.

you call it ‘Milchgefühl’

heavy as cream and argent white as the milk 

that you don’t pour in your morning coffee;

but liquid & 

waxing and waning like the moon

in your afflicted temper.

there we are.

and as we are pinned down throughout our appetisers, 

it colours you with noir lines and circles, 

a staccato hatching.

i call it ‘gloom’, but it’s the same,

and it’s not.

your bulletproof spectre shatters,

pierces,                                   

you crumble

when the main course arrives.

we eat in silence,

hushing up who dines with us at this table, 

any table 

tbh.

we become

a still life.

illustrated in a scintillating hue,

exaltation feels like the mere memory 

of a memory;

for dessert, my love, you gotta safe yourself

before it erases you from the canvas.